Jail

 Please pray for me. 

I am beyond distressed. 

I’m so sick every day. My heart feels fluttery, my stomach sick, I hate the way I feel. Anxiety is at an all time peak and I feel powerless. Left to sit and wait for what comes, forced to endure and be okay with outcomes no matter how hard. No matter who it affects. I suffer silent and alone. I don’t put my life out there for others to see. I’ve worked so hard and for what? What has it been for? Please God I beg you. Please be with me in this. 🙏 

To those that don’t know. When Scott and I divorced I took NOTHING  from our marriage. No alimony, retirements, NOTHING. 

I asked for our house and for patience while I refinance and help the first year. Scott gave me 1yr to refinance the house in solely my name after our divorce. Me, being a newly divorced, newly employed person couldn’t qualify… Need more financial history to meet requirements, they say. I couldn’t refinance. 

2nd year comes we go to court, Scott asks to disown Aiden, asks to be residential parent of the 3 little kids, asks judge to make me sell. I ask for more time and remind the court Scott has been Aiden’s SOLE father his entire life. 

The judge ruled with Aiden (so he’s back in their picture after nearly 2 years of exclusion. I’m still residential parent… still working on my refinance. I have the income, have the equity. It’s literally only financial history holding me back being able to PROVE what I earn when I can only file taxes once a year and am a business owner… 

Because I still could not refinance the court, found me in contempt of court and sentenced me to 30 days in jail. I have until February 1 to try to finish refinancing or have my home sold or I go to jail.

Lenders are still hee hawing around and I’m still waiting for answers as the clock ticks away towards me sitting in a cage for 30 days. 

Scott will deny it up and down, but his goal is to see me fail. He asked me to “just admit I can’t do it already”

To see our kids have to leave this place to be made to go with him because I can’t keep a stable house. 🙄

It has been his desire to hurt me and break apart this family,

It kills him to see us live in this home, 

He would see the mother of his children go to jail.

 His children have to leave their schools and Aiden struggle to try to find a way to and from school. 

He would see me and my business fail. 

All while him and his wife are taking multiple overseas vacations in their paid house, with their paid for cars. I 100% pay the mortgage and they are not affected. They just choose to ignore the option of just being kind and helpful. 

And all I can think of where is where is the justice in any of this? I don’t deserve this awfulness! 

I have worked so hard. 

Please pray for God to be with me.